A Retreat for the Mind

Amidst chaos and other things, sometimes my mind drifts away as a way to cope.

There is a memory of an imagined time and place in my mind, one that has been with me for many years. I may have formed it while reading something, but nonetheless it has become a source of peace and beauty inside, when it is conjured from the recesses of my mind.

It is 70-80 years ago, on a country farm, in late summer. There’s something bittersweet about late summer, a last call for a glass of ice lemonade, the ritualistic sounds of the cicada, reminding me of the same summer song heard yearly.

A gentle breeze, a settling sun, a pink sky, the heat of August is over – beset by the crispness of the looming autumn to come. A last time to explore, to camp, to walk through a shallow creek barefoot maybe. There’s a large Oak Tree outside the backdoors white painted, wood porch – which faces the setting sun. A swing dangles gently in the breeze. A lush lawn of green grass ends just over a slight roll of a hill the home rests on. That is the beginning of an endless field, a field without fences. The calmness, the serenity, the memories of the summer as well as the prior summer are summoned.

A time without commercializations, a time without TV’s or a myriad of fads, a time with no care, a time of inner peace, a time to be lazy and notably, a time of reflection.

“There was a time when meadow, grove, and stream,
The earth, and every common sight,
To me did seem
Apparelled in celestial light,
The glory and the freshness of a dream. ”

-Walt Whitman

Maybe that imagined place can be yours now as well, a place to ponder and to enjoy within your imagination, to visit when times are harsh and unforgiving. I hope I packaged this gift nicely for you to take to heart, to understand, to help heal, to fight.


In Defense of a Nation


This past Saturday, a woman was killed for standing up against Nazis. The same day, the President blamed those who stood up against the Nazis, as well as the Nazis.

The problem is that Trump sees a Nazi rally happening and says nothing, then when violence breaks out blames “many sides”.

Compare that to blaming “many sides” when Nazi Germans invaded France and Poland. Compare that to blaming “many sides” when the Tsarnaevs bombed the Boston marathon, or when any other evil that must be opposed, opposition too gets equal blame.

The energy granted from Trumps campaign to Nazis has grown the movement, it is now a “thing” among the up and coming generation to spread Nazi like hate. It is all over the internet, in unprecedented levels in our lifetime, among a frenzied misdirected youth. These are dark times, and even darker when it goes by and doesn’t get called out by our leadership. At least some leaders have called it out for what it is, but many more are trying to rationalize away the refusal to push the blame squarely on Nazis. I do not recognize the nation I grew up in, I don’t know how those whose family fought against Nazi Germany can either.

This apology is too late and possibly signals to the nazi groups that Trump is doing this because of pressure, which can continue to embolden them.

Trump is Mentally Abusing the Nation

Propaganda has made a comeback in the United States in the advent of the Internet. Partially to blame is the internet itself, which provides the ability for illegitimate, uneducated wanna-be journalists to present information in an extremely biased nature, changing the facts slightly to make the outcome seem more insidious.  We are living in a golden age of propaganda in the United States and it is unfortunately that a large quantity, in at least the 10’s of millions of people, have fallen prey to it.  Trump has risen to power through it, with pushing fake facts that Obama was born in Kenya, which gained him fame and notoriety in the political arena.  A case can be made that this notoriety and popularity led him to eventually feel capable of legitimately running for President, due to a large swathe of support on his Twitter account that numbered in the millions.

Another item that has been coming up a lot lately is the term gaslighting.  Gaslighting can be defined as a form of mental abuse in which information is twisted or spun, selectively omitted to favor the abuser, or false information is presented with the intent of making victims doubt their own memory, perception, and sanity.

Today we see a combined effort of pushing conspiracy theories, propaganda and gaslighting by the Trump administration on an unprecedented level. In the book “Propaganda: The Formation of Men’s Attitudes:” Jacques Ellul wrote the following:

“Direct propaganda, aimed at modifying opinions and attitudes, must be preceded by propaganda that is sociological in character, slow, general, seeking to create a climate, an atmosphere of favorable preliminary attitudes. No direct propaganda can be effective without pre-propaganda, which, without direct or noticeable aggression, is limited to creating ambiguities, reducing prejudices, and spreading images, apparently without purpose.”

Trump and the alt right, tea party and like minded folks have set up the pre-propaganda over the course of years, initially getting support with pushing a conspiracy theory about Barack Obama, this allowed him to push more conspiracy theories as a way to relieve pressure was on him in the White House.  Often what he will present as defense of a situation he has put himself in, is a defense already presented by fervent supporters on Twitter.  While talks of illegitimacy filled the air in his first week in office, Trump wishing to propose that he has some sort of mandate even though he lost the popular vote, pushed against it by bizarrely claiming millions of illegals voted.  That was not his idea, of course.  But this would be a good reason why he lost the popular vote, according to his insecure delusional mind.  Of course, this is sad and pathetic to any reasonable human being, but the propaganda was already set up for him.  Weird right wing media sites are already aplenty and have been hounding for years how illegals are voting, despite millions of dollars of studies proving any such theory false.  Trump proceeded, without evidence, to make the claim due to his insecurities.  He was ridiculed, rightly so, and of course also believed wholly, by what is now recognized as his cult-like base, whom he already reckoned would not leave him even if he murdered someone in cold blood.  They too, have been exposed to pre-propaganda to allow them to follow along in a conspiracy theory, despite all reasonable facts to the contrary.

There has been for a long time a distrust in the media in right wing circles, due to not having their side viewed in a favorable light in their perception, which seems to be a product of the propaganda they have been fed through a decade of internet, social media sharing and drop out journalists with no standards of actually reporting news, but gaining attention by making outrageous claims that garner “clicks” and as such, ad revenue.  These types of websites of course, led Trump to believe Obama was born in Kenya, or that millions of illegals voted against him, or that Obama tapped Trump tower when pressure on him was coming down from the Michael Flynn fall out.

The conspiracy theories were propped up by fake news and terrible journalists who made up lies, spun stories and weaved tangled webs that one could only believed if they made up more conspiracy theories.  Now I am not a Hillary supporter, a very unlikable candidate, but there was plenty of propaganda and lies spread to help Trump win the election.  Hillary Clinton was “bribed” by Russia, by whomever, various claims of some possibly true, some probably true, and many nowhere near true stories have been made up.  The Trump cult has believed them all and push them all at a dizzying rate, millions of shares and millions of voters illusioned by propaganda and half truths, which caused intense polarization and distancing from reality.  This created hate and distrust for every institution in power, because they couldn’t understand why she was not in jail.  More conspiracy theories were formed to justify their increasingly delirious perception, deep state was at play,  yet somehow Hillary was protected.  Of course, Trump ran on this madness as well, with “lock her up” being a key theme.  Considering Trump isn’t the law as President, it was bluster and fecal matter that was being shot out, and “lock her up” quickly died on his agenda, as he had more important things to deal with, such as defending himself from the onslaught of news about Russia involvement, which he did not like.

The propaganda and conspiracy theories have most recently, taken a turn for the worse. No longer are conspiracy theories promoted as truth from Trump and his fervent supporters, but now they are being directly gaslighted by Trump, themselves and the propaganda machine.  The entire story of Russia and their favor towards Trump was denied from the beginning, yet we see that the Trump team has known of their involvement from the beginning, as it was Trump Jr. who was first proposed to receive assistance from a “Russian government lawyer” to provide damaging information on Hillary, as part of the support of “the Russian Government”, per the emails he received and released publicly.  This led us to the important revelation, that not only was this story not able to be considered a hoax or a witch hunt by all reasonable means as Trump pounded incessantly , which it was not, it was  from the beginning an investigation from the beginning to see if there was a deeper connection and or to prevent the situation from occurring again, but it also showed that the Trump team had been lying about thinking Russia was not involved.  They knew better and they knew before anyone outside of the government, it seems.  The lies that followed a year were finally blown apart by this revelation that Trump Jr and the top echelon of Trumps staff knew all along, and really, there is no reason to think Trump didn’t know either.  He is a con, after all and his son and son in law, Kushner, would have done a great disservice by not telling him, in confidence.

Yet after we know they know, Trump continues to call it a hoax.  He called the Russian government operative just merely a lawyer, when the emails themselves explained the connection to the Russian government, their favor towards Trump.  This is gaslighting, it is mental abuse, and his supporters have taken the bait once again it seems.  Denying reality, they pretend the story is a hoax, even though the investigation is not just about Trump, there is something greater at stake, protecting the elections from further intervention.  The followers fall prey to myopic tunnel vision of protecting their holy leader of the cult, forsaking patriotism and duty to protect the nation from all enemies, foreign and domestic.

Trump’s conning ways, such as creating a fake university that scammed millions of dollars from people and spouting ignorant conspiracy theories coming off the top of his head, not thinking pretending to be smart, is exactly what shows that the US has become for a large minority.  A nation who supports con artists,  the voters showed support of an idiot who pretended he knew more than generals about ISIS, while proving he knew nothing. Trump showed America that an undisciplined conniving buffoon can make it to the top, lie to us all, gaslight us all, and still, people will fall victim to his abuse and lay down and think he is right.  It is a shame on this nation and the people who support him thoroughly, they are not only enemies of this nation, they are enemies of themselves, of the world, of truth, justice, intelligence and all that one should hold dear.




Trump the Doomed

Trump continues to divide the country further, acting like a juvenile twit. He continues to push his fervent base into a frenzy of anti media, anti criticism, presenting further his continued desire to lash out at anyone who doesn’t present him in a perfect light, of which of course is far from warranted.

A phrase comes to mind, “weaponizing distrust”, however it doesn’t go anywhere. In the beginning Trump waged a war he couldn’t win. The only victory is for those who only believe any words that he says and not reality, which there is no way to avoid that victory, considering cult is far from able to achieve disillusionment.

When only positive news is able to be allowed from the Trump administration, Trump and team must somehow not understand when things go wrong, when investigations occur, when talks of obstruction of justice, impeachment mount. It must not make sense to those who only wish to somehow believe the words of Trump and the completely out of line propaganda machine the likes of Breitbart, Milo, and the rest of the Alt-Reich deviants push forward for their 15 minutes of fame.

It’s not a surprise that one of the wealthiest, most powerful man in the history of the world, the one in control of the most powerful nation can never seem to be happy in life. He is constantly exposing his insecurities and unhappiness by projecting and attacking others. “A man who is not afraid is not aggressive”. Knowledge, discipline, calmness, peace… these things are what truly is power, these things are none of what Trump can ever possess,. This reason is why I see him as a sad, doomed man, forever unable to achieve what he desires most, because he is so far gone, he forgot what it is he desires, but seems to grasp at ways to get some semblance of it. All the while, failing, living ignorantly and weakly, a weird paradox of being at the top and at the bottom all at once.

Epidemic Propaganda

There’s a Facebook post currently going around, its being shared thousands of times. This is how fake news and propaganda is spread to the masses. We will have millions of people believing in the lies below. This is no different than the weird propaganda and lies that led to Trump being elected, as it was being pushed in epidemic proportions pushed to the masses the past decade by satisfying preconceived notions.

My annotations of true/false are next to it. When I state false, it doesn’t mean that the opposite is true either, just that it is not known.

The post is titled, “The top 10 things we learned today:”

1. Trump was never under investigation. – True
2. Trump did not obstruct justice. – False
3. Trump did not collude with Russia. – False
4. Russia did not alter the election outcome. – False
5. Comey leaked his own memo. – True
6. Loretta Lynch pressured Comey to cover for Hillary Clinton. – Half Truth
7. There was ample evidence to put Hillary in jail but Comey chose not to pursue it. – False
8. CNN and other fake news outlets have been lying / making things up this entire time. – False
9. The Democratic Party no longer has the ability to scream “RUSSIA” every time Trump tries to do something. – False
10. The Russia story is dead – any democrat who continue to push it will look foolish and insane to the American people. – False

This post was a speedy way to disseminate propaganda to the masses, with no real credible source, just weird facebook pages and weird biased “pundits” with large followers who post propaganda all day.

So it continues, No change on the direction we have been heading, a continual divisive split of partisan madness in which the morality at the highest level has crumbled and that crumbled morality has trickled down to the citizens of the United States. It’s only right if I do it, wrong if you do it.

The weird way in which bias has consumed the nation, continues to lead us into the downward spiral postulated decades ago, in which we see the more defined effect today, that the United States has lost grip on its position as global leader.

The people have succumbed to believe whatever truth they want to believe and the propagandists take full advantage. Those in Congress surely understand this and feed off the pulse of the people, because ultimately it is only we who would hold our government accountable. When enough people have an idea of what the government is doing that is shrouded in lies, there is no holding anything accountable.

In any case, it seems we are headed to know what the truth is regardless of the propaganda and Mueller’s investigation will lead us there.

Overall, today was another damning indication of the madness of the administration that lead people to propagate such lies. Today, Trump denied everything Comey said, that he never asked for loyalty, never asked about Flynn. The same man who settled a Fake University fraud case for 25 million is essentially calling the former FBI director who called him a liar, a liar. This is the same man who denied that Russia hacked the DNC until he accepted they did, the same man that said Obama was born in Kenya until he accepted he wasn’t, the same man who threatened Comey with having video tapes of his conversations after firing him, because he seemed to feel threatened by what Comey knew about their discussions. If Comey made all this up, it’s very weird for him to say Trump merely “hoped” he could let this go. You’d think Comey would flat out just say whatever he wanted to make Trump say, such as make up the lie that Trump asked him directly to let Flynn off the hook. It’s pretty easy to see who is telling the truth.

Comey’s Testimony and the Spin that Followed

How can Comey be a liar and “totally vindicate” Trump at the same time? The two assertions by Trump don’t go together, and this proves he has lied and contradicted himself once again. Vindication does not come through the former FBI director flat out calling Trump a liar, and posting an account of manipulative tactics and underhanded methods that implies Trump knew he was doing something inappropriate. Comey was not proven to be a liar.

Trump wants to exonerate himself in the public eye because he wants to continue the propaganda. I’m not sure if the propaganda is a by-product of the depraved desire to feel acceptance beyond what is possible, or if it is a calculated move, but the end product reeks of fascism just the same.

There has been an inability for Trump, his supporters and his Administration to admit any fault to an extent that has gone beyond bizarre. There have been others that have presented themselves in a similar manner, we know them as some of the most infamous leaders in world history.

The administrations psychosomatic narrative, this amateur hour hustle that may have gotten Trump somewhere in shady “Trump” brand dealings, does not cut it when running a superpower. The population, aside from the deluded 30% or so that has been brainwashed by decades of propaganda, can see through this madness – yet the administration attempts to defend the indefensible anyway.

Do they believe the lies and rationalizations themselves? It is very possible. It is very scary if they do. They are on a path that the likes of which was never seriously thought to occur in these United States. A degenerate, damaging administration who’s impact will reverberate through time and history, and not on the good side of it. The propaganda, lies, and spin will continue to produce a false narrative and false perception of reality, all to pander to a base that already believes he can do no wrong and divide those who know better even further. This is nothing short of abusing his faithful followers, taking full advantage of a feverish bias that has cast them under a spell of illusionment. It is mental abuse and it is far from normal.